Today I got to hear your heartbeat for the first time. I never imagined what a complete feeling of joy I would feel because honestly, I didn't know that today would be the day I would experience it. Your daddy was in the room with me and heard you at the same time. When he did, the same goofy look of joy on my face was mirrored on his. In that moment, an unbelievable rush of love for you filled my heart. It seems as though the day when your daddy and I can see you for the first time is so far away, but January will be here in just six short months, and God will fully entrust us with you at that time.
We have waited a long time to bring you into this world. While many of our friends have one, two, or even more kids, your daddy and I have waited until the time was right. At times, that makes us feel like we're on the outside looking in because it's difficult to relate to people that are parents while our nest has been empty. We don't know what schedules filled with school, soccer practice, music lessons, or birthday parties are like, but we will soon, and that thought excites me because I can't wait to see what you will experience.
But there is one thing that saddens me.
I am saddened at the thought that you will enter into a sinful world, more sinful than the world I grew up in. America is quickly turning away from God, and our society is paying the price. It is my heartfelt prayer that your daddy and I can raise you with Biblical truths that you can carry with you the rest of your life. It is our prayer that you will trust Jesus as your Savior, and that your life will be a living, breathing example of his overwhelming love for you. He loves you more than we ever could, and we already love you so much even though we haven't met you yet.
Stay safe in my womb, little one. I will protect you as much as I can while you are growing and forming inside me (Psalm 139:14). Let the heartbeat I heard today continue to beat strong because I can't wait to hear it again.